Endings always suck, and I have been trying to avoid this ending. Although we all know you can't avoid death and taxes. Unfortunately its the reaper who is showing up, I wouldn't mind paying the tax man for some extra time for the cat.
Our cat Orpheus has finally hit the stage where the renal failure is final. We have known for two years, and he has kept himself going really well for those two years. However, about a month ago he started getting thick around the abdomen. As of last Saturday he has finally started to lose his appetite and he has become skin and bones. Although he is still bright eyed.
In fact, not more than 10 minutes ago the cat noticed that I was laying on and the problem with that is he thinks that is unacceptable. So twice tonight although he has been huddled on his electric blanket, he has gotten up when he saw me paying attention to the wife. He then both times walked over and started howling at me to pick him up. So he got his way yet again, he always thinks the wife is a whore who I shouldn't touch when he is crabby like that. It was funny enough that I think we both almost cried.
We got a hold of a vet, Dr. Kaftanski. She was awesome on the phone and was incredibly reassuring. In addition she uses an anesthetic before actually euthanizing, so Orph won't be freaked out, except for a possible pinch.
So the deed will happen at 2pm tomorrow (Tuesday). I realize its stupid to think this way, but I have always hoped there i something else after this life. If there is, I hope at least the animals get to go there (or come back). Of course that goes for everyone else as well, but since Orph is the one leaving next, animals are my focus.
I have always been weird that way, if I could buy my friends and family an afterlife with my own destruction/damnation I would do it and not even blink in the decision.Ok, that was a weird side tangent, probably because I just took all my meds and I only slept about 3 or 4 hours last night.