I woke up this morning and something was different. Honestly I couldn't tell you when it was different or exactly why it happened but things are different. I woke up this morning and the name Catholic Sin didn't quit fit anymore in my head. I mean its fine for my livejournal name, but I was looking at my website and the domain name just didn't seem fitting.

I don't know specifically what is different, just that blasphemy doesn't quite seem to fit me anymore. I am happily married to a beautiful girl (and have been so for over a decade, 11 years to be precise). I own a mobile home, now sure its cheap trailer trash but we have upgraded it and we own it outright, no payments. Sure we pay lot space but thats by far way cheaper then renting. I am college educated and will be returning there as soon as possible (or at least entering nursing school). My parents are no longer raging drunks, they have been sober 16 months and I am starting to worry about them less. I am surrounded physically or at least net wise by many friends, some of which that date back over 15 years.
The only negative in my life is 42K in student loans, but thats easily taken care of too. I just dont feel that aggressive, angry, defensive feeling anymore. Now this doesn't mean I am going to grow up and grow old, not at all. I am still gaming (love it) I still like kinky sex/porn, I am still a raging liberal with the love for guns and other things conservative that seem to surprise people. When I go back to school next winter I will still probably dye my hair blue. But I think all of those things are me, I am no longer angry at the church really. I don't think I could ever go back to a Christian church with all the hypocrisy (and no matter how much I hate the Catholic Church, they would be the only christian church I go to). I still have problems with god/christianity/superior feeling that many seem to have (I believe the Hindu's have it right, there are many paths).
Honestly as I delve further into this post I am not even really sure what to say about things. Just that the name "catholic sin" isn't quit as appealing as it was 5 years ago. I think I am happy with my own name "Lucky" (yes my real name). I think I may eventually change over to something closer to what I am now, we will see.
In the end, I have no idea what the post is about, just some mental ramblings that had to come out in text. Thanks for listening.

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